The Archive

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Every page here was written at a different hour, in a different mood, about a different shade of the same life.

bonus: what this playlist became

When I first made this playlist, I wasn't really thinking about it as a story. I was just putting songs together because I liked them. Some had been sitting in my music library for years, while others were songs I had recently discovered through TikTok edits. Some were there because of a specific lyric. Others were there because of the production. And some were there for no real reason beyond the fact that they *felt* right.

August 25, 2026

Music·5 min read

part eight: when music becomes personal

There are some songs that I can appreciate because I like the production, the lyrics, or the atmosphere they create. Then there are songs that become something more personal. They become connected to a specific period of my life, a specific version of myself, or a feeling that I remember all too well.

August 25, 2026

Music·4 min read

part seven: the songs that feel like a specific moment

Some songs make me think of a specific place, person, or moment, even if that moment never actually happened. They can be so vivid that listening to them feels less like hearing a song and more like watching a scene play out in your head. *Honeybee* is one of those songs for me.

August 25, 2026

Music·9 min read

part six: songs that exist in a dream

Some songs feel like they belong entirely to reality. You can picture exactly where you are when you're listening to them, and the lyrics or production keep you grounded in that moment. Other songs do the opposite. They make everything around you feel slightly less real. You aren't necessarily thinking about the lyrics or trying to understand exactly what the artist is saying. Instead, you are being pulled into an atmosphere.

August 25, 2026

Music·9 min read

part five: sitting with what remains

There is a point after something happens when there isn't really anything left to do. The conversation has happened, the relationship has changed, the person has left, or you've finally realized something you had been avoiding. You can't go back and change what happened, but you also aren't necessarily ready to move forward yet. Instead, you are left sitting with it.

August 25, 2026

Music·8 min read

part four: when everything comes out

There is a point in some situations where you can only keep your feelings inside for so long. You can try to stay calm, you can try to explain yourself, and you can try to convince yourself that something doesn't bother you as much as it actually does. But eventually, something gives.

August 24, 2026

Music·9 min read

part three: i know i should leave

There is a difference between not knowing that something is bad for you and knowing it very clearly but continuing to do it anyway.

August 24, 2026

Music·9 min read

part two: almost, but not quite

There is a particular kind of relationship that can be difficult to explain because technically, nothing happened. There was no official relationship to break up, no anniversary to remember, and no clear moment when someone said, "This isn't going to work." Instead, there are just moments: a conversation that seemed a little more meaningful than it needed to be, a question that made you wonder why they were asking, or a feeling that seemed mutual even if nobody ever actually said so.

August 24, 2026

Music·8 min read

part one: when something changes

There is something interesting about the way a song can capture the feeling of wanting something to change without necessarily knowing exactly what that change is supposed to look like.

August 24, 2026

Music·5 min read

big bop: an introduction

I tend to make playlists based on whatever mood or vibe I happen to be in at the time. The names, however, are usually much more random.

August 24, 2026

Music·7 min read

more than just noise

I have always had a connection to music. It started when I was young, with distinct memories of going to my grandparents’ house and hearing music constantly playing in the background. My grandpa especially loved music, though most of the time I had no idea what songs or artists were actually playing. A lot of it came from the 50s and 60s, and he was a huge fan of Elvis Presley.

May 7, 2026